An Existential Crisis


We’re coming up on week FIVE of our Game of Thrones CAL, and I still haven’t finished my House Stark banner. In fact, I’ve barely touched it all week; it just sits lonely on my yarn cart, waiting.

I’ve been struggling with my crojo for a few weeks now, and I’m not really sure what will solve it. Maybe it’s because I’ve finally figured out how big of a C2C panel I make before losing interest. Maybe it’s just the time of year. I don’t know.

Lately, I’ve also been struggling with the whole blogging thing–particularly when it comes to blog growth. Last year was an exponentially explosive year for us, and 2017 has so far been looking a little lackluster.

I have been considering the move to a self-hosted system in an attempt to try and make real money as a “real blogger”. There are a lot of obstacles along that path, and I’m not sure I’m ready to face them yet. In fact, the thought of trying to self-host this blog is just plain daunting. Will I really have the time for that? And what if nothing changes? What if we continue along this year’s pattern of blog growth? After all of that effort, time and money, what if it turns out it just wasn’t worth it?

Argh! Internal struggle! (Seriously–thoughts and comments would be really appreciated!)

However. Positivity.

We have over 9700 followers, and over 1000 of those followers are subscribed to our email list. So if you’re reading this because you got an email, YAY! (Also, you’re awesome. True story.)

This blog started as merely an outlet for my hobby. And frankly, it wouldn’t be what it is without the Harry Potter CAL, so props to all the Potterheads out there! I feel like I’m still trying to narrow down my focus, and all I can really come up with is:


Seriously though, I’m reminded of the thousands of followers of this blog, and I’m so blessed that you take the time to craft along with me. I have a habit of giving up on things when they get difficult, and I can honestly say that this blog wouldn’t be here without each and every one of you. ❤ ❤



9 thoughts on “An Existential Crisis”

  1. i have definitely struggled with losing my crojo many times. At one point I didn’t pick up a hook for two years after completing a very very large blanket. I have no idea how to get your crojo back but I know that for me, I’m never working on one thing, working on a few projects means I can switch if I lose interest in one. Sometimes I’ll do a different craft, or I’ll watch some crochet streams or youtube videos. I hope you get yours back soon! Love reading your posts 🙂

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  2. I love that you’re sharing your struggles with us. I don’t blog but losing my creativity seems to happen across all my fiber crafts at once and it’s devistating. Got a sewing one going in now and it’s so bad, I can’t motivate myself to drive 15 minutes to JoAnn while they’re having a 5/$5 pattern sale. Just as you, I know this will pass. Wish I could kick start myself, though.


  3. The thing to remember is why you love it! With anything that takes effort, sometimes you need to step back for a breath or two and recharge/regroup. Where do you want to be? What is holding you back? What do you want to get there? Are you feeding your own creative juices and love of crochet? Or blank out and find something you can veg out to and let the neurons cool down. Things are cyclic at times, so right now is a crossroads or a lull in the tide. Enjoy the moments, Padawan!

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  4. I find this happens with me too especially when im coming to the end of a project. So ill do something like a beanie to change things up then i find my cro jo again for my other peice. And thanks for your blog i love reading them.


  5. You either need a vacation or a different project you can get excited about in my opinion. It’s not easy figuring out what to do, but it feels like a great time to be involved with yarn crafts, it seems very popular right now. Whatever you decide to do, I wish you good luck.


  6. I really enjoy your CALs. Not sure I’ll ever have time to do them all but plan on “hooking” to my end of days. I do understand losing interest in a project though so I try to keep at least two different types of crafts going at all times and can switch back and forth depending on my mood. When working on a large project, I sometimes stop and just crochet a hot pad or a dishcloth just to be able to feel like I finished something. I am sure you will get your crojo back again – don’t stress yourself out about it – crocheting is supposed to relieve stress. Be happy.


  7. I feel your frustration. In 50 years of crocheting, I’ve had many times I just can’t pick up any project. For the last two years, plus this year, I have crocheted my mind into mush. I have taken on a huge project of creating oversized afghans. Actual measurements of 5′ X 7′ to cover my family & keep them warn from head to over their toes. The guys are all over 6′ tall. I’ve accomplished 9 of the needed 17 so far. I really want to finish this year, but I’m afraid I won’t make it.


  8. Hiya, Definate Newbie adding to your ranks this year! I only started Crocheting in March and plan on starting your Harry Potter CAL as soon as I have finished making my mums birthday present! I’m feeling really inspired by your projects and hope that you soon recover your cro-jo. Thank you so much for doing what you do, and if you need abreak, at least it gives people in my shoes a chance to catch up 😉 xxx


  9. Hey girl, I can relate to your loss of cro-jo, I am suffering right now myself. I have been following you for a couple of years now, and I totally love your work. I have been saving CAL blocks for several years. I love to have them to go back to, sometimes I can’t work along, so I want to have them for later. Last weekend I had my CAL file open adding to it, and my kitten walked across my keyboard and deleted my whole file. I lost everything. It is nowhere in my system. I have been so depressed over this, and I’ve not been able to pick up my crocheting since. I follow on Facebook, and I so admire everyone’s posts of their work, but I just can’t make myself join in.
    I love all your patterns, and I think I can speak for all of us when I say you are a special person for sharing your patterns and your talent with all of us. With all you do burnout should be expected. I can imagine it is loads of work to keep up with your blog, plus design all your patterns. I, for one, have been remiss in showing my appreciation, so I would like to say thank you for all you do. You are a blessing to us all.
    Step back…breath…and know you are loved.
    Lisa in Alabama


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